For a long time, I felt emotionally numb and disconnected from G-d.

Whenever I made mistakes, I’d move into fear—believing G-d couldn’t possibly care about me unless I was perfect.

This made me freeze up or desperately try to please Him, hoping He wouldn’t abandon me. But I learned something powerful:

Nothing about G-d changes because of our mistakes or struggles.

Think of a parent with their infant:

When the baby drops a toy or stumbles, the parent doesn’t change. Their care and presence remain the same.

Imagine this:

You learn new things every day. New ideas change your perspective. But G-d doesn’t learn or change. He already knows everything simply by knowing Himself. Even after creating mountains, oceans, and your complex emotions, G-d remains exactly the same as He always was.

Why does this matter?

Because it means you’re never truly disconnected. Feeling lonely or overwhelmed? That’s not proof that G-d stepped away. In fact, these moments are exactly where you can find G-d closest.

Two simple things you can do today:

1. When overwhelmed, quietly remind yourself:

“This feeling isn’t separation—it’s an invitation to find G-d right here.”

2. Notice one simple thing today (the smell of coffee, the feel of sunlight), and tell yourself:

“G-d isn’t just watching this moment—He’s IN it.”

Your struggles aren’t proof of distance—they’re proof of connection.

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