Trusting the creator through faith and intimacy

The Creator wants our relationship with Him to include belief because belief makes a stronger kind of intimacy possible.

Why does intimacy need trust?

Deep intimacy requires trust. Trust means remaining connected even when everything is not fully visible, understood, or emotionally felt.

In any close relationship, you must believe there is more inside the other person than what you can currently see.

You sometimes have to trust their love even when you do not fully understand their actions, feelings, or inner world.

The same is true in our relationship with the Creator.

What does trusting the Creator mean?

Trusting the Creator means believing that one lifetime of struggle, uncertainty, and difficult choices is worth an endless World to Come filled with revealed goodness.

It means trusting that the meaning of this life is greater than what we can currently notice, and that no sincere act of goodness, sacrifice, or faith is lost.

But a relationship with the Creator is not meant to remain only an intellectual belief.

How does belief grow into awe and love?

As we notice the patterns of infinite wisdom around us, belief can become awe.

Awe includes wonder at the greatness of existence, fear from recognizing that the Creator is here and our choices truly matter, and humility as we recognize how limited our present understanding is.

Trust then allows awe to grow into love.

Love of the Creator can include joy in feeling close to the Source of life, that intimacy can contain sadness because His goodness can always be revealed more, and we can always know and feel closer to Him than we do now.

Both emotions show that the relationship matters.

Why are these feelings so hard to feel?

For many people, these feelings are difficult to access.

Generational trauma, emotional neglect, and long periods of survival can train the nervous system to reduce wonder, fear, sadness, joy, and even love.

Emotional numbness does not necessarily mean the relationship is absent.

It can mean the nervous system has not yet developed enough safety and emotional strength to feel it fully.

Faith allows a person to remain connected while that ability slowly grows.

What does faith say when the feelings are missing?

Faith says:

“I do not understand everything, and I may not feel everything yet. But I trust that Your reality is greater than my current understanding.

I trust that Your goodness is present even when it is hidden, and that this life is leading toward a goodness that will one day be fully revealed.”

This does not mean rejecting reason or pretending suffering is good.

It means recognizing that the Infinite Creator cannot be measured by what the human mind can understand, or what the nervous system can feel, during one limited lifetime.

Why is the Creator hidden at all?

The Creator’s hiddenness creates the possibility of faith.

Faith allows trust.

Trust allows awe and love to grow.

And that intimacy allows greater pleasure, because the greatest pleasure is not merely receiving goodness from the Creator.

It is knowing, trusting, loving, and feeling close to the Source of all goodness.

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Questions people ask

What good comes from the Creator's hiddenness?

Hiddenness is what makes faith possible. When we cannot see everything, we still get to trust, and that trust lets awe and love grow. The closeness that comes from trusting what is not yet revealed is a greater pleasure than only receiving goodness from the Source of life.

What if I do not feel close to the Creator?

Emotional numbness does not mean the relationship is absent. It can mean the nervous system has not yet built enough safety and emotional strength to feel it fully. Faith keeps a person connected while the emotional skills of noticing, feeling sadness safely, and letting wonder in slowly grow.

Why can loving the Creator feel like both joy and sadness?

Love for the Creator can hold joy, from feeling close to the Source of life, and sadness, because His goodness can always be revealed more and we can always feel closer to Him than we do now. Both feelings show that the relationship matters.

Can trauma affect my relationship with the Creator?

It can. Generational trauma, emotional neglect, and long periods of survival train the nervous system to reduce wonder, fear, sadness, joy, and even love. That does not mean the relationship with the Creator is gone - the nervous system may not yet have the safety and strength to feel it fully. Faith holds it steady while that grows.