Anxiety isn’t proof you’re far from G-d, it’s your soul feeling more light than it can hold.
Jewish wisdom explains that anxiety is light without a vessel, the Infinite shining into a world still learning to receive. Finite experience requires vessels.
A finite being can’t experience infinity directly, that’s why G-d expressed Himself through sefirot, a system of ten energies, wisdom, understanding, kindness, strength, beauty, and more, vessels that allow His Infinite Light to be felt in measured ways, while revealing His essence.
When our personality isn’t yet refined enough to reflect those measures, when our inner world can’t yet express the truth it feels, the light overwhelms us, that’s the root of emotional “darkness.”
But through practicing humility, the body learns to hold that darkness as light, to feel awe instead of fear, curiosity instead of control.
Anxiety says, “I can’t handle this.”
Humility says, “I don’t need to, I’m here to channel G-dliness, through acts of love with boundaries.”
That’s when the same fire that once burned with panic, turns into yearning to know G-d more, and the darkness begins to glow.
More guides to understanding G-dliness:
How G-dliness spreads around the world through joy:
https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1F5gbWrL1r/
Trauma replaces compassion with survival patterns:
https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1WwqtoHkJq
Why does life have to be so hard?
If G-d is perfect,
https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1CZdoCggoH/
Jewish secret to transform suffering into blessing:
Your pain isn’t random.
https://www.facebook.com/share/p/19orPtLzeM/
Everything is a metaphor for G-ds unconditional love –
https://nextself.ai/spirituality/why-you-only-feel-g-ds-love-in-glimpses/
https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1BfyQ7jsdu/
Noahide laws increase awe in a healthy way –
Imagine being 5 years old.
https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1ELMqkqd84/
Explore the NextSelf Blog. Start with this post explaining the world of souls. And my Youtube.
The blog lists all the difference patterns to study, understanding patterns is how one can develop 'Daas' [felt knowing].
Update: As awe, trust, and love deepen, they can allow greater openness and intimacy with the Creator. That intimacy can include sadness when you notice how much more of His goodness can be revealed.