There are only a few situations that are meant to feel that serious.
A wedding is not one of them.
A holiday is not one of them.
Hosting guests is not one of them. But when you go into debt for them, you end up living in survival mode more often. That means something is at risk. Your system has to stay alert.
What does survival mode feel like?
Survival mode feels like:
“How will I manage this?”
“How will I survive this?”
Your body is tight.
Your mind is busy.
And you won’t feel lasting joy from that place. You might have moments of joy. But your system isn’t at rest. The Creator did not ask you to serve Him from survival mode.
How does debt keep you in survival mode?
A wedding can be calm.
A holiday can be warm.
Hosting can be simple.
But debt turns them into something you have to keep managing in and out of survival mode. Only three things are life or death according to the Hebrew Bible. These are the only times you go into full survival mode to not do them:
Idol worship.
Murder.
Forbidden sexual immorality.
(like rape, incest, and adultery).
What do you do when it truly is life or death?
That means: You do whatever it takes to not do them. You take on debt. You give up comfort. Everything else is where you learn how to feel joy and build relationship.
Explore the NextSelf Blog. Start with this post explaining the world of souls, and what does it mean to be light? And my Youtube. Content is published to this facebook first and a few days later, to the blog.
The blog lists all the difference patterns to study, understanding patterns is how one can develop 'Daas' [felt knowing].
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